My Biggest, Truest Regret

     I have many smalls regrets that I could own up to through out my life, however there is really only one large, substantial regret that I have. I wish, that back in elementary school I would have stood up for myself and confronted my attackers (bullies). I have been constantly attacked and ridiculed ever since the first grade. I would be verbally and physically harmed by other students in my school. You're probably wondering why I never stood up for myself, why I didn't fight back. The truth is, I still really don't know why.

     My regret falls in to the "not" pattern. I did not do anything to help myself, or stand up for who I was as a person. I deeply regret not standing up for myself. To this day I really do feel that maybe if I did fight for myself, maybe things would have gone differently for me. Maybe I would be in a better place emotionally today if I had done this. I was effected by this in a very harmful and negative way. Some people may look at me and see that I seem alright. But some people just don't know the effect that bullying can have on a person.

     I think that even if I had stood up for myself, the ridiculed would have still occurred. It may not have been as bad, but I still believe that it would have happened.

     My regret ties in to the class theme of lies in deception, in that my mind deceived me. It told me that I deserved what was happening and that nothing could be done to help me. That was a huge lie, maybe even the biggest lie I have encountered in my life,